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.& 014. I Just Wanna Fall and Lose Myself.
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I just wanna scream and lose control; throw my hands up and let it go. Forget about everything and run away, yeah. I just wanna fall and lose myself. Laughing so hard it hurts like hell. Forget about everything and run away, yeah. So-so’s how I’m doing, if you’re wondering. I’m in a fight with the world but I’m winning. Stay there, come closer it’s at your own risk. Yeah you know how it is life can be a bitch. First, I just need to say that if you have a kitten or are getting one and need to get the first shots, check-up, and neutering done: go through Banfield at the Petsmart stores. They have a Wellness program that is like $200-something dollars for the year, payable over 12 months. It covers all the vaccinations and the alteration or declawing. We’ve already saved $500+ on Charlie. Speaking of Charlie, he is getting so big! I think he’s finally reached his full size. He’s grown into his ears! 10 lbs, 6 oz. And he’s not fat! He’s got a bit of what I call a ‘pudge-pudge’ but it’s minimal. He’s a very active cat. Second, the trip to MI was… well it wasn’t a disaster but I wasn’t comfortable at all. Rick and I left here by like 8am and made it to Grand Rapids, MI in 11.5 hours. Rick did all the driving. (I offered! He refused!) The wedding was the next day. I managed to look hot so that was a huge plus. I got there and found a few of the agents from KW back in Los Angeles who are still friends of Lisa and they’d flown out for the wedding. They didn’t recognize me at first. That was amusing. But then I find out from my aunt Joyce that no one thought I was coming. Why? Because I’d RSVPed but not actually made contact with anyone otherwise to try and find a hotel/lodging or to get directions. Uh. The address was ON the invite. I work for AAA. I do this shit for a living. Not to mention, I’m a big girl. I can figure out lodging on my own. In fact, I got a really nice hotel room for cheap and it was within 15 minutes of Lisa’s house. Nyaaaaah~! But it really hurt that they all just assumed that I was going to not show up. No, it actually hurt a lot. I get that I haven’t spoken to anyone except for my father since my grandmother’s funeral last year (in August). But it’s not like any of them have made any attempts. It goes both ways. It was an open bar and everyone was drinking during the short ceremony. I was drunk within 3 hours. Good times. We left shortly after that and drove home the next day. On Friday, Rick got layed off from his job. They cited the economic troubles, which is good because they can’t try and keep him from getting unemployment. I’m still not sure what we’re going to do. Everything is up in the air at this point. We don’t know when the unemployment money is going to kick in or how much it is going to be. The only ray of light in this is that this is one of the months that I’m getting three checks. The first check paid October’s rent. The third check will pay November’s rent. The second check will pay my bills and be my gas/food money. Very stressed right now. He and I haven’t talked a whole lot yet about the future. Mostly, I think, because we’re both trying so desperately to not freak out and not let the other freak out. I’m still going to CA, though. My ticket is already paid for. Non-refundable since it was paid for with the points. It would be completely stupid to not take the break I so desperately need. On a side note: I’m completely in love with the new show Valentine! |













