My mother recently adopted two dogs from a woman about to lose her job and home. A springer spaniel naked Bucky and a cocker spaniel named Bear. This brings the pack total to six. Three females, three males.
The next day, one of the dogs was almost killed.
My mother was heading out to pick up Kyle from school. The three spaniels all got excited and she let them go for a car ride. They picked up Kyle and headed home. At some point one of the boys got their head stuck in the window, having stepped on the automatic window button and rolled the window up on himself. By the time my mom pulled over, both she and the dog were screaming. She couldn’t get the window to roll down.
Kyle didn’t even hesitate. He jumped out of the car and smashed the window with his elbow. Both the dog and Kyle are fine!!
So the whole attempt at blogging every day in February fell to the wayside when the east coast got hammered with two snow storms. Since then, I haven’t gotten a good night’s sleep and I am completely, thoroughly exhausted. I have been run ragged and my patience is nonexistent.
We had our reviews at work and I opted out of doing ke self evaluation because I was fucked over last year. I abstained out of protest. Me, the one who normally tows the line, was the one who protested. I felt a little better for it though.
I have been absent in my duties as admin over at Ecstasy because I have just had nothing left after getting home from work. I need to get back into the swing of things. I can’t be That Person. I need to be getting REST! I am tired of being so sapped of energy that I can’t even be creative or enjoy any of the things I used to enjoy. Soon. Soon.
We’re getting snow right now and this is the worst I’ve ever driven in with my little Toyota Corolla. With me at the wheel, that is.
I made it home safe and sound!
… though I slid near the street to get home and kinda went “OH SHIT OH SHIT OH SHIT DON’T HIT THAT POLE!!” as my car slid and sort of “parallel parked” the hard (easy?) way up against a curb. I may or may not have hit said curb. I refuse to go out and check my car and ruin my high of getting my ass home safe.
Snow is on the way. They are calling for this one to be worse than the one in December that almost left me stranded at work for the weekend. I may or may not be living at Daniela’s house this weekend LOL. I work on Sunday as a switch because one of the girls desperately needed the day off due to family issues. She couldn’t get one otherwise because so many people had off or switched already for Superbowl Sunday.
I could care less about football so it wasn’t an issue. I just find it funny that I will be working AGAIN through what will wind up being a state emergency declared most likely.
AAA doesn’t close when it comes to roadside assistance.
I am exhausted and I have to be up early tomorrow. I am not looking forward to tomorrow. Friday. Saturday. Sunday. I will sleep much of Monday away if possible. Work Tuesday. Will have Wednesday off. Ooh! I need to tell Kim so we can hang out
I think I slept a total of about 14 hours today. Not all at once, mind you. But it still isn’t enough. I am utterly drained and just want to crawl into bed and stay there.
Part of it would be depression, part of it being the chronic fatigue settling in for a stay…
I worked a little bit in the wee hours of morning on getting back into my Japanese learning. I really need to invest in a mic so I can get the full experience in with this program. I know my pronunciations are mostly correct since I have a knack for that sort of thing and I went through two years of Japanese at the community college with Kuratani-sensei and Kanai-sensei – but it would still be nice to be able to jump into this and just go through it, being corrected along the way where I need it.
I feel very stuck right now. Which is funny because I really don’t have any ties here outside of the few friends I managed to make at work. Few though they may be, they are mighty and I am glad to have met them. But they are not enough to tie me to this place. I either want to be home or I want to be somewhere truly foreign.
My finances at this time sort of negate either possibility.
My head has been in all kinds of places lately. I cannot seem to concentrate on any one thing for too long. I am not sure if it is boredom, a refusal to be tied down, excitement… Whatever it is, I strongly believe it is what is affecting my sleep.
For the past two weeks, my inability to get any decent sleep has gotten so much worse. One night/morning I could not sleep until 8am. Even after finally falling asleep to hopefully get five hours in before having to get up for work, I woke up around 10am and was up for another hour or so before managing to get another hour and a half in before work.
I want to DO things. I am limited by time, energy, and funds to do most of the things I want to do, though. I guess I just have to continue to keep my head down and plug away.
Hard to believe that my first real post of the year is over two weeks into 2010 already. Angel, being very pushy today apparently, mentioned that I needed to blog because it had been so long since my last post.
The problem is that I don’t have anything to say. That is, I have a lot to say but none of it can be said. No, I am not internalizing things; it’s just that none of it is appropriate at this time in a public place. And being public is what it’s all about when blogging, right? Far from it. There still needs to be discretion in place and that is what I am doing right now.
It’s all mostly the same ‘ol thing. Work sucks. Home sucks.
Charlie got a bath tonight. He didn’t freak out which was surprising. But he ran out under a parked car and I had to drag him out. Which left him filthy between the dirt and the oil. To make up for it, I sort of catnipped him out. He’s happily staring at a spot in the carpet that is completely uninteresting.
Are you gonna live your life wondering, standing in the back, looking around? Are you gonna waste your time thinking how you’ve grown up or how you missed out? Things are never gonna be the way you want. Where's it gonna get you acting serious? Things are never gonna be quite what you want. Even at 25, You gotta start sometime. I’m on my feet I’m on the floor I’m good to go. Now all I need is just to hear a song I know. I wanna always feel like part of this was mine. I wanna fall in love tonight. Are you gonna live your life,s tanding in the back, looking around? Are you gonna waste your time? Gotta make a move or you'll miss out. [Jimmy Eat World - A Praise Chorus]
